Still waiting to pass the fetus, nothing yet. I have some guests tomorrow night. According  to my luck, it can happen then.

dealing with life

I lost my baby last week at 11th week of pregnancy. All was awful, waiting in the ER, talking to the doctors, and feeling desparate. I haven't still passed the fetus, I suppose, although having severe cramps 2 days ago.
Life can be so fucking sometimes. Now, I feel numb, as a ruptured baloon, like a dead body...

If a job's worth doing, it's worth doing well.

back on tuesday

There are some things that you forgive at twenty that you don't at thirty.
David Gilmour

new year

That wasn't great at all.we were packed in the crowd, choked by smoke, pushed by people.The fire work was too short and we couldn't hear the music vividly. But you know, maybe these are not the reason, maybe I am not happy, just not happy. Maybe the only thing that can chear me up is our national new year back home with family and friends, and this sound so impossible, so not real...